So a few days ago was the first warm, summery, beautiful goodness weather day that you can't help but go outside in. I can't remember what we were doing, but my friend Raquel and I decided to go get some refreshing cold icees. We excitedly stopped at one gas station, and they didn't have any! Their machine was out of order. So, we decided to go to the next one a ways up the road. We drove with the windows down, enjoying the gorgeous day, listening to a fun indie band - the hunts. (p.s. check them out. perfect summery music.) When we drove into the parking lot, it was abnormally busy - cars and motorcycles and people all over the place. So, I cruised into the only parking spot open - which happened to be in the middle of a huge herd of rough, tough, rumblin' motorcycle riders. An especially tall, large man stood next to his fancy bike next to my door, munching on some sort of sugary snack. I felt just a tiny bit conspicuous as I opened my door, because they were all just standing there, eating, staring at us. Raquel & I opened our doors supperr carefully, but it was a bit close, and mine came pretty close to tapping his fancy motorcycle. I looked at him, and he looked at me seriously, and I gave him a half apologetic grin - kind of scared, honestly. He looked down at me, and said
"You know, I've never punched a girl - but there's a first time for everything".
Hahaha, I was really, truly threatened by a hulking motorcycle biker.
I had this overwhelming laughter start bubbling out of me, so I just gave him another grin and Raquel and I ran into the safety of the gas station, where we promptly busted out laughing.
It was a slightly terrifying experience - not gonna lie.
This past week was awesome, but this coming week the stress is getting to me. I'm going to miss my friends - so, so much. It's really sad to say bye to people, and not know when the next time is that you'll see them, or if you ever will again.
However, I'm not going to be sad that it's over - I'm going to be happy that it happened. And just because we won't be at school with each other doesn't mean that those friendships will end. Of course not! (: I'm so grateful for the impact they've all had on my life - I've definitely changed into a better person because of them.
It's hard to not let stress affect how you treat other people. I'm ashamed to say that I've found sometimes I get so wrapped up in my little bubble of worry and anxiety that I disconnect with the people around me - and that's really sad. It's so easy to do. What is it with our society that people can be facebook friends & interact online, but don't even say hi in real life? It's an odd world we live in.
People here at SVU are awesome examples though - so many of my peers always say hello, with a smile on their face, and genuinely care about and are interested in others. I definitely want to be that type of person - the person who can brighten other people's days and help them feel just accepted and understood and loved. I know the people who have been that sort of person to me have made a huge difference in my life.
The stress of finals are getting to me, and I can't wait to go home to that lovely home with the river and the horses and my brothers and sister and my family. Right now my heart just wants to be outside, enjoying the beautiful mountains and forests and rivers, with no company but myself and the peaceful countryside.
However, I'm not going to let my stress totally overcome me. There are much worse things than getting a lower grade in Spanish, especially if I did my very best. And there are people out there who need friendship and need to be served and cared about, and that work is probably far more important then the finals that I'm so stressed about.
So, it will be alright. I'll do my best, and life will still be good. (: